my lower half is a lotus

it represents purity in the face of adversity and

burning the petals can suffocate you,

according to the superstitions analysis i read

research for a piece of fanfiction.

people always write idols to be fucking each other

i like bdsm without the sex and

tack on a major character death tag

i read about them making love

to educate myself

i think it'll be nice to feel that kind of desire

whatever it means to have fire

burning in your gut and fireworks

in your veins / so many flames / crackling /

i think i just have ashes 

where my flower takes root. they say sex is liberation

so i paint myself in black and gray and white and purple

and did you know that purple 

is the last color of the rainbow

and it means i will trust and love you

for a long time