The Formula

boy + girl = couple

Society has hammered the formula into me since birth. And even though I know better now, it's still hard to escape.

I see a girl. She's pretty. I want to be her friend. I talk to her. She's nice. I want to be close friends.

I see a boy. He's prettier than most. It must be a crush. I must want to date him. Except I don't really. I hardly know him.

The pretty, nice boy I know very well. Are the flutters when we talk romance? He's a boy. I'm a girl. I enjoy being with him. Is this what romantic attraction feels like??

Except... Why do things seem more special with a boy than with a girl? Is it the rarity or is it the formula?

With girls, I connect so much more deeply. They are easy and comfortable. So why do I get confused when I feel the same things watered down with a boy?

That damn formula.

Does not even include everyone. Maybe not even me...

Reprogramming is so hard.