Vol. 5, Issue 2: Disability
AZE, 5(2): Disability
Contributors: Anonymous, Lindsay C, Chandler, Mara Rose, Elle Rose, Daniel Cruz, T.R., PDU, [sarah] Cavar, Michael Paramo
Editor: Michael Paramo
Cover Artwork: Untitled, Paramo
Supporters: This journal issue would not be possible without AZE’s supporters on Patreon. A special thank you to Lindsey, Alex Hansen, Caitlin McKenna, Chris Pasillas, and Heidi Samuelson!
Date of Publication: August 7th, 2022
It is through this resistance that I may identify my ‘dis-abledness’ as interconnected with ‘who I am’: as an embodiment of decolonial resistance.
Here, “trans” is the verb my Madness takes as I refuse to engage in the project of cisheteronormative social life.
Defective in body, in gender, in desire. / Misunderstood like the movie monster.
I omitted the explanation that I am asexual and aromantic, but I didn’t want to enter into a discussion with a professional that could pathologize me further, especially with the queerphobic atmosphere I perceived, so I let it be.
Asexuality is not a mental illness, but if you’re a depressed and anxious demisexual just trying your best, blaming your sexuality that you’ve suddenly started talking about on mental illness can worsen queer imposter syndrome.
Looking back, I understand it better now. I was being taught how to be “attractive.” And I was being taught how to be alloromantic and straight.
rehearse your own desirability to yourself, you are not broken / your love is powerful, most people have never experienced it