a friend has asked me once
who do I find beautiful,
so I said, “those that are natural”,
so I thought, “is it because I myself am not?”,
by some definition, myself, as late bloomer.
but under what sky does this matter, when the maples are
giving us their memory-sweet sap sooner than they ever did?
MY ANACONDA DON’T
I don't know why I agreed to this. Skinny dipping at night. Jumping into a body of water naked at night. Who do I think I am? Some white girl in a coming-of-age film?
Polyphemus, As Understood by the Aromantic/Asexual Individual
In my cave under the mountain, I sing odes / to Nobody,
landscape8
This piece represents a part of my journey in coming out as asexual...
Vol. 7, Issue 2: Gender Expectations
Vol. 7, Issue 2 of AZE focuses on the theme of gender expectations.
Choosing A Gender
I was first aware of gender when my voice changed.
Queer as in Fuck You
First, you want to know who fucks me now.
late bloomer
‘But do you know?’ ‘Are you certain?’ ‘You’ll figure it out eventually’.
the world is my grave
my body will never be used
for what the male gods have the female insides predestined for
Time, A Notebook Of Water
From the moment we left those feelings
unpronounced
The Choices We Don’t Make
Your ace-ness has fed you a
comforting lie
journal (take #53)
dear diary, i’ll make this brief in the sense that i’ll try to summarize everything i cannot say concisely
Three Poems
When he clasps your hand
It is both a greeting
And a recognition of the
Work needing to be done
Dress Code
All the girls wore plaid jumpers until I turned ten years old.
In the absence of? Everything.
He holds me so tight I might compress back into stardust.
Intimacy – The Duality of being Ace.
I write a lot about intimacy. I write about my understanding of it.
asexual has a manic episode
lens of / kaleidoscopic shards / render me
The Formula
boy + girl = couple
Society has hammered the formula into me since birth.
On the Discomfort of Inhabiting Gender and Sexuality
My confrontation with gender detachment was the first time that I was able to put into words the relationship I have to my gender.